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Seeing Danger Everywhere

March 9, 2017
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Last year former CIA head Leon Panetta found himself drowned out at the Democratic convention with shouts of NO MORE WAR:

Just a few days ago, the 78 year-old Panetta told CBS news that Trump’s tweeting weakens the presidency and  (GASP!) prevents him from starting wars. This… is a disappointment to him?

“I think, I think that is raising the most serious danger with regards to the ability of this president to relate to a very dangerous world,” Panetta said.

Dangerous world…

One of the key components of the far right-wing mindset is the firm belief that we live in a dangerous world which must be subdued and conquered through strength.

Rudy Giuliani is a case in point.
I remember seeing Giuliani give a speech to the GOP convention back when he was considered relevant. Like many conservatives he sees threats everywhere. After that, he spoke about this almost every time he delivered a speech. He insists that the world is a dangerous place, filled with people who want to kill us.

How does this happen to a person?

As with many fear-based people, Giuliani suffered early-childhood abuse at the hands of his parents and he now labels that very abuse as the best thing that ever happened to him. 
Giuliani – even today at age 72 – tells the story of being a 3 year-old in Brooklyn where the other kids worshiped, as children are often wont to do, the Brooklyn Dodgers, their local baseball team.
At that time, Giuliani’s father – for reasons unknown, other than the fact that his record shows him to be a sadistic thug (of the type Giuliani later make a career out of prosecuting) – would dress little Rudy in a NY Yankees uniform and send him out of the house. For wearing the uniform of the Brnox team in Brooklyn, Rudy would get beaten up. Every day. And his old man did nothing to help. In fact, he just kept sending Rudy out in that uniform – which all the other kids hated.
Sounds pretty grim, right?
But Giuliani says that what his father did helped build character. Well, yeah, a WARPED character.
From the NY Times in 1989:
When Mr. Giuliani was about 3 years old, his father, a dedicated Yankees fan, bought his son a Yankees uniform and cap. Mr. Giuliani’s mother dressed him in the uniform and sent him out to play in Flatbush. He was pounced on by a group of boys almost immediately. They were Dodger fans.
”They took the hat and threw it in the mud,” Mr. Giuliani recalled. ”They threw me in the mud, too, and probably whacked me around a little bit. I ran upstairs and either my mother or father said, ‘Well, now you’re going to be a Yankee fan.’
”So,” he continued, ”I kept wearing that Yankee uniform, and I kept getting thrown in the mud.”
He is still a Yankee fan.
Note the repression: the kids PROBABLY whacked him around. He doesn’t know? He cannot tell if his mother or father gave him dubious advice that he still obeys, yet he QUOTES that advice?
He was THREE YEARS OLD at the time and was still relating this tale of woe at age 45.
At over 70 he continues.
These are signs that a person suffered greatly and still carries it about in a repressed/mythologized way. Is the brutality Rudy suffered at the hands of the kids at a truly formative age, and his family’s indifference to his suffering, the reason for his seeing the world as a dangerous place? For him, at the time it was dangerous! Whatever the cause – and this is the alarming part – Giuliani STILL insists on wearing a Yankee uniform whenever he can. He sends out SIGNED pictures of himself this way. As an old man, Giuliani is still reacting to a situation that happened in 1947…
Compare Giuliani’s story with the story of Hillary Clinton’s mother having thrown her out of the house at age 4 – and her need to repeat the tale over and over and over while insisting that it was an act of motherly love and character building. Hillary’s mother did this because Hillary was abused by bullies and she came home crying. Clearly what the mother did – rejecting a child in pain – was worse than anything the other kids did. A 4 year-old RELIES on the parent. But her mother punished her in a most horrible way that without doubt set off a crisis of separation anxiety. And this too NEVER left Mrs. Clinton. Even as an elder, she still needs to please her dead mother:
People with untreated/unresolved childhood trauma are not “crazy” nor are they necessarily “bad” people. They are damaged people. These people suffer deeply yet they will never acknowledge it. After 60 years of living like this, it becomes not a part of who they are but who they are in their entirety. And putting such people in positions of power is dangerous. Lethal. Ask the surviving citizens of Libya and Honduras – where Hillary “stood up to bullies” – how they liked having her help…
Clearly, there exists in such damaged people a stubbornness that makes them adhere to the self-created mythology of their brutal childhood – while projecting it onto the world. They still say, to dead parents, It’s NOT my fault, Mommy/Daddy! The WORLD is DANGEROUS! Don’t blame ME!
In my work as a Tarot Consultant I regularly hear from people who have undergone the most horrible things that life can throw at a person. Yet they sought out help and coped with the problems in a productive way. They all have in common a willingness – a desire! – to face the issue and resolve it so they may not be dominated by dead fears.
None of us grew up unscathed. But many of us got help in dealing with these things rather than allow them to fester to the point where we compulsively live our lives in reaction to a situation that no longer exists.
On a personal note: For years I have told people that I had a childhood only Charles Dickens could have written. I can never undo it – but I don’t have to mythologize it. The physical torture I endured and the mental abuse – these are part of who I am and always will be, but they do not RULE or DEFINE who I am.
Because I got help.
The last thing I can imagine about myself is that at age 70+ I will be standing in front of people I don’t know, repeating day after day stories of early childhood abuse and praising my parents for inflicting this damage on me.
Looking at Hillary Clinton and Giuliani, I have to wonder what happened to Panetta so many, many years ago that now, at age 78, he can face a crowd of THOUSANDS saying to him NO MORE WARS and have it mean absolutely nothing to him. He SMILED at this! I would certainly question myself if I underwent that experience. Judging from his subsequent comments, Panetta only saw that as confirmation that the world is dangerous – meaning, the world is against him personally.
Do we really want such people in charge of our society?
Really?
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You Can Live Forever…

November 30, 2014
The Return of a Classic!

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For many among us, this is a very rough time of year. This is the time of year that gets many people down. We associate this season with past happiness and also with past sorrow. Memories of childhood, both good and bad, can overwhelm us.

Also, as the year ends, I hear from many people who just feel as though they could have – or “should have” – done more in the past months. As one year passes and another begins, a sense of loss is not uncommon. Even though years, and months or days, are arbitrary divisions, we have been trained to give them meaning. The end of the year is especially endowed with meaning and ritual. And of course, perhaps the most demeaning ritual ever devised now comes into play: The New Year Resolution List. Mostly, this list becomes a litany of things we dislike about ourselves and things which we “failed” to fix in the past 12 months. To me, this list is about as masochistic as it gets. A self-flagellation that would do a dark-ages monk proud.  

Add to that, the unrelenting pressure put upon us by retailers shoving product after product at us… making people feel less than whole if we lack certain items – items that never even existed a short time ago! – or don’t have the money to buy them now. It is a terrible crime, to instill continuous wants and desires in people to the point where they become deranged with cravings. Witness the spectacles of people bursting into the malls after Thanksgiving Day. It is not any specific product they crave in their mob frenzy. It is happiness. They just want happiness. Well happiness is not going to come to you from anything companies spend a billion dollar to promote. That is what we know as the Post-Holiday Blues. You got what you craved, but you are still just… you. Even though being YOU is the biggest gift you can have. We are trained to think otherwise. No mall sells happiness. They sell transitory elation, but that is about it. It fades pretty fast, as we all have seen.

If you are feeling that sense of loss and experiencing the feeling that you don’t matter, or that you missed the mark last year, then I strongly recommend this book: YOU CAN LIVE FOREVER. This long out of print book examines how people touch each other in more ways than may be instantly visible. Especially when our vision is bedimmed by the fog of memories and self-doubt. Look at this:

“You, yourself, who are reading this, have an influence unknown to you. What you do is unique; you are the only person who has your qualities of mind and heart, soul and body. You are an individual; therefore you are important even though you may not know many people. You will leave something behind you, not merely goods and chattels, but an impression, an influence, which will remain perhaps to the end of time!”

Original 1940s Ad!

Original 1940s Ad!

That is from this book. Every life is valuable, unique, NEEDED, and that includes you! Everything we do influences others and indeed our actions, be they humble or writ large, change the world. This book celebrates the individual! If the season has you doubting yourself – if you are starting to feel isolated and alone – please read this inspiring volume. After decades out of print, this work of uplifting stories is back to show us – when we need it most – that life is a CIRCLE and that all we are and all that we do travels out into the universe.

Take look at the ad, which is the original ad for this book. Of course, the price is more than one dollar now, but adjusted for inflation the cost of the book today is about the same as it was in the mid-1940s. That is how the publisher wanted it. This book is too important to miss out on. Through its inspiring pages, this helpful work can help you to open the door to a more serene life of contentment and happiness. True happiness.

When the people at Mojo Bros. Classics asked me to write a forward for this new edition, I read the book and decided that I could not add anything to it. Author John Berry Cavan examines lives of famed persons as well as everyday people to show how each and everyone of us is indeed important and influential. Although I do not share some of his religious views, that is no reason to scorn the book. There are many belief systems in the world, and in the end, this author’s system is one of understanding. 

Please consider reading this book. It has so very much to offer. Just click HERE or click on either image above to go to amazon.com to see how to get your copy.

And always remember: You are important!

What Is A Coward? WHO Is A Coward?

August 14, 2014

RB500xlWith  the “news” that Robin Williams had gotten a diagnosis of Parkinson’s Disease, we are sure to see an uptick in television conservatives calling Williams a coward. I will deal with Mr. WIlliams and cowardice in a moment, but first, what about these conservatives? With an average of 108 recognized suicides a day in America, why has this one gotten their goat? Rich people killing themselves places a spotlight on the deficiencies of capitalism. These things prove that money does not necessarily solve all our problems. Nevertheless, wealth and fame are the new American dream, replacing the simple home, job and family. People with no shot at attaining either wealth or fame, still waste their lives chasing them. So when people who do have wealth and fame kill themselves, it seriously deranges those who worship those twin goals. To them, the act is at once incomprehensible and threatening to everything they hold dear. They don’t see that people like Robin Williams or Phillip Seymour Hoffman are just people like anyone else. They happen to have a bit more money and many folks knew who they were… But they are/were just people.
Now: What is the NUMBER ONE FEAR of the American people? Public speaking. Needless to say, Robin Williams, like all comedians, conquered that one. He may have had jitters. He may have even experienced stage-fright. But the point is HE DID IT ANYWAY. Courage does not lie in being fearless. That is foolhardy. Courage, the opposite of cowardice, is displayed when you do anyway that which you fear. Williams starred in many Hollywood movies and TV shows. His résumé is a huge list. When he worked, millions upon millions of dollars and THOUSANDS of jobs hung in the balance. And he always showed up. He did the work. That shows more than just courage. That also proves RESPONSIBILITY. 
Comedians are like the heavyweight boxers of show business. That’s how Uncle DIrty describes it. You stand there alone, you and the audience, and you fight it out. You. Alone. Nobody to help you. Just YOU and a room full of people saying SHOW ME WHAT YOU’VE GOT! Think you can do that night after night, year in year out? Especially in the beginning of your career when, let’s face it, you suck at it? Even boxers don’t endure the onslaught of failure that a comic must face in order to learn the craft. That brutal learning period can go on for many years. You think Shepherd Smith of FOX “news” can do that? Hardly. Yet he called Williams a coward and then lacked the courage to say, “Yeah, I did that. I called him that. So?” Instead Smith copped out by saying he didn’t mean it and, employing the all-purpose dodge of the conservative who gets caught, he whined: “my comment was taken out of context.” Robin Williams DEAD has more courage than Shepherd Smith alive. 
Comedians are, by definition, brave. We, who populated the comedy scene when it was hot, knew one comic who, on the way to the laundry, ran into a burning building to rescue people. Another, traveling to a gig, was in a train that derailed. Thrown from the train, he rushed back to help pull people out of the twisted wreckage. Would the junkie Rush Limbaugh do that? Ha! He doesn’t even have the guts to stick out a marriage. Williams married twice and both were long-term relationships. Limbaugh couldn’t make it more than a few years for HALF his marriages… And Williams is “a quitter”? A “Coward”? No. What he was and continues to be, is a self-actualized person who lived on his own terms, And THAT scares the hell out of the rigid, conformist, “OBEY OR ELSE!” wing of the conservative community. They are the cowards. Need more proof? Show me any one of them who called Williams a coward WHILE WILLIAMS WAS ALIVE and did so to his face. Good luck with that. I spit on these vultures. And I would do it in person, too, because that is easy. I was a stand-up comic in New York CIty and friends, that takes guts.
LATE UPDATE: Reports have come in that Rush Limbaugh is retracting his comments denouncing Williams. Well OF COURSE he’s retracting the comments. They served their purpose. He got media attention. And that is all it was about. He doesn’t give a rat’s ass about Williams. His comments were a way to latch on to a story that’s world-wide news and tear off a bit of that attention for himself. He doesn’t mean ANYTHING he says. He’s all about regaining his audience so he can get sponsors to come back and so he says anything that will focus attention on his big fat deaf head. He is in the shit-house and will soon be off radio. And he knows it.

DOWN WITH FLU

May 31, 2009

Temporarily out of action with this horrific flu making the rounds.  Good time to check on my past brilliant words of wisdom (Hmm, the flu went to my head. It appears to be rather, shall we say, swollen). To this end I have listed this non-post post under all my headings. So take a look at all of it and let me knwo what you have to say…

back by week’s end…

Look What They’re Saying About My Book!

January 29, 2009

Holy Mackerel!
Look what they’re saying about me and my book, The Collected Magickal Essays of Rev. E. M. Camarena!

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I just finished reading your book. How refreshing it is to have someone explain the path to Enlightenment without the artsy-fartsy bullshit. It’s wonderful that you speak to the reader directly and give us credit for intelligence and a sense of humor. Importantly, what should also be noted is your courageous offering to be willing to learn from the reader as well. I’ve been working on my Self-Realization for over three decades now and have pretty much heard it all. What you present is “right on,” practical how-to instruction to “seeing” what is really real – the value of the Soul as compared to temporal attainment. My best wishes for the continued success of your book – Edward S.

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I loved your book. I knew it would not be another typical muddle-headed ramble on occult topics and you did not disappoint!  I brought it to work on Tuesday and read it while pretending to work. We may differ on a number of topics, (like karma), but we have congruent views on many of the fundamentals – like the nature of reality! Your humor, common sense and, most of all, your obvious goodness and decency come shining through on every page.  It is a treasured addition to my library! Do you have other works available? – James J.

 

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Should you be at the dawn of realizing that an entire world exists just beyond the edges of your own five senses and are wondering how it all works and what your own place is within it, then this marvelous Magical book is just the one for you. 
This tightly wrapped volume of essays draws into scope everything you might expect in a book dedicated to western esoteric studies — the occult, rituals, spells, tarot, talismans, black magic, religion, the Tree of Life, as well as a few good pointers of what to do and what is wise not to do. The author illustrates by example the results of his own magical workings which range from sheerly astonishing, to the hilarious. And, I mean to say so funny that you can’t stop laughing and when you do, you want to call your friends and tell them about it! Startled, laughing, and then whispering “wow” to yourself, you hurry to turn the next page for the next surprise. 
Be fooled not by the size of this snappy little volume, for part of the brilliance of this neatly sculpted work is the very precision by which Camarena streams more highly energized knowledge on its pages than you’d find in stacks of other books on the subject. As he explains how beautifully Magick fits into our daily lives, it seems that he’s walking along next to you, showing you the ropes, the landscapes, scenery and shortcuts in a style so familiar you’ll feel that he’s from your own hometown, taking the uncertainty out of the uncommon.
As disarming and charming as the author is accomplished, with a doctorate in biblical studies, a newspaper publishing business, and having theater and film writing under his belt — you may sense the Rev. Camarena’s elegant style, and that he is very smart in addition to being an esoteric practitioner. He knows his stuff and ties up the package by swinging you past the Golden Dawn, Aleister Crowley, the works of Geoff Gray-Cobb and provides a diamond cut clear view of the Central or Middle Pillar Ritual. Everything you need to land on your feet running in the ways of Magick. 
The book is filled with treats reminisent of an earlier time, I will not reveal these goodies, but will suggest that the author has a formidable knowledge of language, he is a master of words and perhaps the biggest literary surprise will be found at the end of the book, but in truth, the whole book reads like a magical Fourth of July fireworks display on paper. 
More introspectively, shall I close by commenting that in this complex world of ours, I feel that Rev. Camarena has distinguished himself by his humanitarian nature. By offering so much to anyone willing to read this book, I wonder if he is the type of person who will not move forward unless he is assisting others to progress as well? I do not know the author, but I did ask a question of him via his website which answer was of the kind making me curious to read his book. I’m glad I did, it is well worth its price and it will travel along with me on my journey as well.   –  Tedda



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Spiritual Guidance

January 20, 2009

SPIRITUAL GUIDANCE: Many of us have had our heads screwed up and crammed with other people’s beliefs and fears. It is very difficult, for example, for many people to approach the Bible because it has never been presented to them in a way that is human and humane. Many others equate the occult with blasphemy because of those voices deep within which really belong to someone else. People must get over that in order to deal with religion and spirituality on their own

erasethosetapesterms. I can help you to ERASE THE TAPES implanted during early childhood. You are an adult now, YOU NO LONGER NEED THOSE TAPES. Let’s ERASE THE TAPES forever so you can live your own life in your own way.

Many people preach long and hard to tell you that only one way exists to becomepreacher one with the Godhead. Naturally, that one way is their way. So consider this: You and I both want to get to Chicago. I, situated in New York City, would have to travel west. You, however leave from San Francisco so you have to go east. We have each traveled in opposite directions yet we got to the same place. So now what should we make of this? We start to argue. You insisting that going east is the only way and I just as dogmatically, insist that the only way you get to Chicago is by going west. We argue and get nowhere. A man wanders by, little suspecting what we are about to draw him into. We grab the man and lay it all out for him. “East is the only way!” “West is best!” so we decide to ask the man how he managed to get to Chicago.  So he says he’s from Mississippi and we’re both nuts- you get to Chicago by going north. And he storms off convinced that we’re both wrong. Does that kind of behavior make sense to you? It shouldn’t. Yet that’s how many people view religion. Going so far as to smugly insist that if you don’t believe in the same thing they believe in, the God the benevolent, God the merciful, God the loving, will crush you into little pieces and roast you alive for all eternity. Gee, thanks, Oh Merciful One.

Now, I don’t mean to make fun of people who think that way (yeah, right) but millions do and others have that message burned over and over again into their heads. It is like a Jewish woman I know who was raised in a strictly kosher household. Years later, as an adult and on her own, she no longer practiced the religion. It was a choice made in a rational way. No big deal. But that childhood training sure came rushing back to her the very first time she ate a pork chop! All those tapes started playing full-blast in Quadraphonic® stereo! Childhood is actually brainwashing, when you think about it. You come into the world knowing nothing (it seems) and that space gets filled up real fast by folks all around you. As John Bradshaw so eloquently points out, until we do something about it, we are all walking around in a post-hypnotic trance induced in early childhood. Take education as a case in point.  As the Master Therion noted so many years ago, education means a drawing out. To “educe” means to bring out

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what is already there as a latent potential. But in our culture, rather than drawing out, education is a matter of cramming in. Rather than helping us to find out who we are and what we were born to do, our educational system just crams into our heads what the “experts” agree is “knowledge” and “belief.” It can take a whole lifetime to get over the kind of mistreatment which is a standard education here. I am not saying that I am either qualified or able to help get anyone past that, but I sure as hell can help you when those tapes impinge upon your spiritual desires and needs. I’ll be there to help work out the answers with you, not for you. It will be a Journey we take together.